I was terrified by the news of Haiti recently.
Until I saw them, I know there are still hopes and loves

Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Everytime we love, everytime we give, its the time the world at its best

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.
I believe that love cures people, both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it.

Good luck Haiti.

I don't usually like to speak about politic.

When I do, it must be something that had happened really annoyed me or its because I feel like there is a need for me to do so.

I feel like I have the urge to speak something for this country at this very moment.

Since I was small, I was told to work harder than others because we are not the majority of this country. We have the need to work harder than others so that people can see us and recognize us.

And so I did.

I wouldnt say I have much of an accomplishment now. But I can humbly say I at least am representing my country for the moment.
Trust me, I have more love to this country than I could possibly written it all out here.
I love the country like how I love my family, because without the country, there wouldn't be me.

I knew you since the first day I was borned. Everything I had with you is definitely the best I could ever get in life.
"I thought I knew you"

You were one of the 17 mega diversed countries. You were the song that we all sing to commemorate the death of those warriors who claimed the land from the dictator. You were the home for thousands and thousands of elites and families. You were the greatest nation dominate the world industry of rubber and palm oil.

You gave me the most joy and excitement that I couldnt find anywhere else in this earth. You have the best food and the best places to visit in the countries. You have a great system that bond people from different races together.

And most importantly, you were my home. You were the closest friend that I had ever made in my life. Those 50 years of history have proved that you are strong enough to overcome any fear of people have had for this country. You once told the world you are the place where everyone can live under one roof peacefully.

To quote Margaret Atwood "Perhaps that's been my difficulty in writing you this letter: I'm not sure I know what's really going on."
The situation is horrible for anyone to see in this world.
I felt embarrassed when I saw the news all over the world.
"When did you get so fragile?"
Shouldnt you be holding hands together and building up the country?
Is it worth to give up the once great union for a single word of"god"?
Where is your once glorious "bersatu dan maju"?

The fire might have destroyed the building, but I truly believe that union between people will not be destroyed so easily.
It was said that "the land that spilled with my blood is my country" and "god gave happiness for the people".
If there should be a war declared, it should not be a civil war.

I am not writing to show how arrogant I am and telling to others that my words held new and intriguing insights that nobody in You had ever thought of or heard before.
I am writing to do as much as possible as I can as a student to help you.

If there is a wish for every meteor fallen on this earth, I will stay out every night to wait for meteor rain.
I wish that this country will back at once again.
It will be.
refer to Margaret Atwood- A Letter to America

Its probably an once in a life time "bomb in the bus" experience.

It was a snowing day, some people slept in the bus while others enjoying the scene from Washington DC to New York. Most of us are sleeping and try to get as much rest as possible before reaching New York.

But one of the passenger in the bus are not.

We woke up by the sudden stop of the bus in the middle of the highway. At first I thought it was just a routine stop so that people can go to restroom or grab some snacks.
The next scene is what makes the day interesting.

About 4 police cars surrounded the bus and ask the driver to go down from the bus.
I wasn't aware of the incident until I saw a tall inspector-like guy come up to the bus and ask us some question about the changing of driver.
So I thought what is actually happening to myself at that moment, but only she knew what was happening.

Maureen, the girl was later asked by the police to go down from the bus. At first I thought it was like some illegal immigrant kind of stuff. But it was more than that.

The bus driver then come up to the bus and whisper to the front row passenger
"That girl is crazy, she said there's a bomb in the bus"

I figured it out immediately. The girl actually thought that the bus was hijacked because there was a change of driver about 1 hours ago.

So the whole thing becomes connected, that girl thought the bus were hijacked by this pakistanis-looking driver and that he is going to drive us all to hell on new year eve.(literally speaking).
On the one hand you can say that this girl watched too much movies. On the other, she was just being cautious. A lot of issues actually contributed to this incident, discrimination is definitely one of them.

I believe part of it is because the 911 smashed too hard on the country, it probably will never be forgotten by them anytime soon, though it had been nine years now. It just too painful for them to see their friends or family pass away in such a sudden and unexpected way.

After the incident, I looked out to the window.
I can hardly imagine about living a life in danger, nor in fear.
I couldnt help to look at her in the bus
I think she actually did something good for her, and of course

for us.

What I did in 2009
2009 was great despite of the swine flu, economy crisis, people losing jobs, but still, it was a great year for me.

I had been to six countries, 7 if you count Macau as one in 2009.

2009 set the down-est record for my mood so far. January 2009, I can still remember vividly how my mood was affected by the result I got for the first semester. It was devastating, I was homesicking, desperating, and food craving for that time.
Trapping in the foreign country without the support and accompany of your family is hard, you have got to do everything by yourself, and you have got to know that its no one but you.You got to buck up and face the coming challenges. Love it or leave it, thats the thing I learnt.

Then just in a blink of time I am home. Nothing can ever beat the feeling of home. I have only one home, because home is built with love and dreams, but house is just made of sand and stone. I may have a lot of places to stay, but home, just one.
There is nothing half pleasant as going back home again.

2009 was probably the year where I had the most buffet lunch and dinner in my 20 years life. I believe I had eaten more than 200 salmon sushis for the past year.

Been to Hong Kong. It was really a great trip, but it could be better without the swine flu.

Bangkok, May 2009. Travelling with friends. Had some jokes that will never ever be forgotten. I realized that squating in front of 7-eleven eating maggie mee can actually enjoyable :) I had so much time well spent with you guys and seriously if the time would just stop for one second, I would grab the chance to spend that one second with you guys.

Bali family trip, June 2009. Travelling with family member is definitely the best thing in life. And of course, I had the chance to meet my brother whom I have not seen for 1.5 years. I really wonder sometimes why is he so different than me. But one thing I can be sure of, we share the lameness. And we absorb each others' lameness and make use of it.
And because of this trip, we promise each other to have a family trip in June for every coming years.

Its funny how three of us ended up pursuing our dream in different regions on the earth , I am at the north hemisphere, he is at the south hemisphere, and he is in the middle of the earth. Three of us experience three different timezone and culture, but still, we share the same blood.

Melacca, June 2009. You can get the best chicken rice here, it is seriously very berry strawberry delicious. Would definitely go back again for the chicken rice alone. How nice it is? I would say I wouldnt mind driving for three hours to Melacca just to have that chicken rice then drive back home. Eat is always a big part of me.

June 209. Pulau Redang, Malaysia. Probably the best island in Malaysia. Recommended for couple as well as a bunch of friends. One thing that I saw in the island make me fall into deep thoughts. The workers there are mainly immigrants. They are really good in term of providing services.
At first I saw one of the workers there holding something and walk to a corner alone. I thought he was planning for something bad. But it turns out he wasnt. He was actually trying to find a silent place to read a letter alone. I can never forget the smile from his face when he was reading the letter. That is just so natural and full of love. When he is done reading it, he kisses the letter and go back to work again. He saw me on the way back to work, and he nodded to me and smile, and that is, one of the best smile I had ever seen in my life.
Working abroad is hard, but it is not when you have the support from your family.
That might just be a letter for any other person, but for him, its something that he couldnt afford to lose.

September 2009. Gathering with friends can never be more fun, you get to know everyone's stories and of course, secrets as well. Sendoff two of my best friend to study in US. Went to sing K almost every twice a week that time, those are the crazy time, but yea, I love it.

Summer 2009. Went back to the things that I once lost interest in, Petanque.

August 2009, Got my first ever DSLR, partly due to the horrible incident I faced where I lost my camera.

Summer + Fall + Winter 2009 Learnt how to solve a rubic's cube online. Now I can solve it within one minute. Finally decided to have something lively in my room, so I start to take up the responsibility of petting fish, and it really helps. As the picture shown, I got to save a little money as well.

December 2009. Before the end of 2009, I got the chance to fly over to achieve my American dream. The country was good. Though its not that good as what I was imagine before but still, its a great trip and I learnt a lot of things during the trip.

Till then, my wish for 2010 is simple.
Better than 2009 :)

10 things I learnt in USA

1. The carts in US airport are not provided for free.
At first I was shocked when I saw Seattle Tacoma Airport actually charge people 5 bucks for using those cart to pull their luggage. Same thing in New York, they dun offer carts for free in JFK airport as well.

2. US people say excuse me instead of sorry

When I was discussing about how to differentiate between Canadian and American, the only difference we found was that they dun say sorry when they accidently bump into people, they say excuse me instead.

3. New York is not as pretty as how it is potraited through media.
In Chinese proverb we say "Gold outside, bad things inside"(I know its a bad translation)
I was hoping to see like the real "New York City" as what it looks like on TV, and I failed. Everything town or city has its own flaws, even the biggest city in the world.

4. Count down in Timesquare is overrated
Maybe people just enjoy the crowd, but I am not really enjoying it. I would prefer more show on the stage rather than just show the crowd some ads and MTV

5. Washington DC might be the city that I will end up living in someday
Some town have its own kind of attraction, this one just fit me best.

6. US people appreciate their history a lot
People can queue for like two or three hours to see a piece of constitution made 200+ years ago.
At some countries, people will only queue up to buy lottery or toto.

7. Travel to some boring places can be fun if you are with the right people.

8. In Malaysia, talking about politic and government is what you wouldnt want to do, but in US and Canada, its the only thing they do.

9. People in US are generally fatter
The result of consuming too much fried food. You can see an overweight people in every four person I guess. Thats why size XXXXL is never too large for them.

10. The tenth and the last one, 路遥知马力,日久见人心.
You will never know someone enough until you really get to know them. lol. Both good and bad side. :)
Turning 21 somehow means a lot to me
I think its time for me to think about my life now.

Present and

Choice to be made and fear of everything to be lost.
The brave action to be done, the glory song to be sung