The name of the park is Pacific Spirit Regional Park.
At first I was aiming to become the second runner up of the race. Which at least I can still get a medal anyway.
This moulded me.
I am not a very big fans of luck, and I know the more I do, the more I will get.
And there is a very great quote that I love
"If you cant excel with talent, triump with effort"- Dave Weinbaum.
River Flows In You - Yiruma
I had never posted any song into my blog, because I think the autoplay function will make people feel bad when they are in my blog.
But now I do
The song is so like me
Its kinda like my mood right now.
Lost the direction of life and kinda in limbo for everything, what do I really want in my life?
The music is sort of like a people struggle in a forest, sometimes he sees hope, sometimes he dun.
And thats me right now.
The river flows is in me, so calm in the surface, but yet there is turbulent flow underneath.
I always want to thanks my mum, she is always the most important figure in my life
I remember a time when I called her after the english test.
I told her I am definitely not going to pass it.
She told me "Its ok, A is not everything, make sure you give ur best in every test then its enough"
I dun have the courage to tell the world that I failed the test that time. Because I know I can never put the blame on anyone but myself.
And yet, I am glad that I have family members that never put pressure on my studies. Not like they dun care. But they want me to enjoy my life and study whenever I want to.
I guess this is one of the reason why I am me. I study whenever I want to and enjoy my life whenever I feel like it.
Because I know life is short and in one blink, or maybe one next second, we wont be in this world anymore.
I always wanted to do something in my life. I try to be different.
Or should I say I want to be different?
I finally went to Vancouver not-so-tall looking tower. I mean thats the only thing you can do to get to know one city right? Go to a higher place and have some sunset photo, then go down again. Well, It might not be as tall as other building, but I got some special feeling about this city night view because I had spend half year in this city and still counting!
You might say its pretty tall, but not after u see the comparison between this tower with the other tallest buildings in the world.
Yes, not even longer than your little finger
I tried one of a new thing in my life, LASER TAG. At first we thought we were the oldest among the people there. But it turns out that there is an older guy in his 50s who named himself as "terrorist X" won the game. Yea, older ginger is always hotter. Guess he spent a lot of time there shooting children.
Good thing is, I keep on improving in those three games, it ended up with I ranked as 4th place among some old wolves. Frankly, kids are easy target. And it was fun fun fun!
We four stay in a group and kept shooting whoever came into our territory, its a better way to win the game because some random guy will just bump into us and we will earn extra point by shooting them. Pity them.
No comment on this picture please, its just for fun
First thing first, what can be more compliances than grades in University?
The purpose of University had changed from an institution of exchanging and sharing knowledge to a place that marks is everything.
Coming to this University, I found out that some people are just too busy to conform themself. For example the second generation Chinese here, their parent are too busy to suit into this society where they forget to teach their children about their heritability. And so they lost their own culture by trying to fit into this land in every possible way.
There is a very old opinion inside everyone's head
"if you behave properly, you will get property"
I did have some sleepless nights thinking about what I want later in my life.
Its kinda funny that from the start I dun even know how to spell psychology. I used to spell it as "physcology".
By choosing this way, I know I can't build physical bridges to connect Penang to Seberang Perai.
But I can build mental bridges between people.
By choosing this way, I know its impossible to count how much material needed to build another twin tower.
But I can help the worker and the construtor to do better and faster.
Being here, I always try to think ahead of my age, understand the system, and conform when it suits me to conform. I never admit that I am a loser in my life, even once.
I see how different people act compare to the place where I was born
I see how different people talk compare to the mamak language I used to heard a lot.
I have seen so many things here even I cant believe that I got the chance to see it in my life. I see how cruel people could be when they have no choice. I see how people betrayed me and thinking that its not a bad thing at all.
I also see how people devalue other's property and feel like its something they can take for granted.
When people ask about what is the definition of FRIENDS?
I would say I dunno last year, I guess they are the people who treat you good and love you.
But then this half year changed me
The formula in my heart had changed.
I used to treat everyone good in every possible way without hoping any payback.
But now, I will only treat people who treat me good double good. And in turn treat people who treat me bad double bad.
When I am in class and sitting in the front row, I will concern about whether or not the people behind me can see the lecture note or not. Then I will try to stay still as long as I can because I scare that one movement will distract them. When something bad happen, I will offer my help first because I know sometimes its hard for people to ask for help. I dun really care when people are taking advantage of me, but if that action push me into a self-harming situation, I will resist. I was living for others for such a long period. And now, I wish to live for myself more.
I dun give a damn in those friendship anymore, because I know it doesnt worth it anyway.
And in the end, love is not always truthful, it need to be deceitful sometimes so that people like me will eventually realize and say,
"I was such a dumb"
And now, not anymore
Here to share a line in Harry Potter that I found very meaningful
"It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up against up to our friends."
Professor Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone