Songs is always something in my life.

When I feel sad, I listen to it

When I feel happy, I listen to it.

And even when I go to toilet, I will listen to it too.

Its the thing you can access to antyime. When everything around you is not right, put your earphone on and the world will be yours again.

I am that kind of people who can listen to one song over and over again in certain time without getting bore with it. But its temporary. So my favourite song tend to change once in a week.

There are some song that actually marked the stages I had been through in my life.

They all have certain meaning to me. When the rhytm starts, I tend to fall into deep thoughts myself.

I call it learning. The learning of every stage of your life.

你记得吗 by 胡彦斌

Its like the first chinese song I start to hear. It has certain meaning for me. If there is a word for it, it would be naive.

The second one would be I believe (My sassy girl theme song)

Whenever I play the song on my ipod, I will have a special feeling. It feels like I did something bad, but it was because I was still not mature enough to handle anything serious.

And of course, I can remember those scenes in the movie. It is still on of my favourite movie till now.

The third one is Pretty boy by M2M

This song represent the downest moment of my life. But still, I am glad that this song come to me. It makes me grows up a lot.

The fourth one is 朋友-周华健

Its not about anything in the song that make this song special. Its about when and where I sing it. And the moment I sing it. This song marks the end of sweet 16 in my life. Out of all, I think this is the one I love the most after all these years.

The fifth one is 隐型的翅膀-张韶涵

What I like is the pureness and the feeling. The word for it would be dream. The dream of striving for a better future.

And the last one is Selfish-N'sync

The lyric is just perfect. The word for it would be miracle. There isnt a lot of miracle in my life, but I am luckily enough to have this one as miracle. =)

But one song never gets old to me.

The song name is "Lee Lung", I can play it anyway I like, with my own story in it. Its noisy sometimes, but still, I like it a lot. And I have never worry how long the song is, because when the time comes, it will stop itself.

I am quite surprise when I heard "You have the look" again from a new friend of mine today.

Somehow I thought its something that people will only realize when they actually talked to me.

"the look" is the so called psychology look.

Its like N times that I heard this from my friend and I am still wondering what in me that potrait myself as having that look.

Maybe I really look like one, talk like one and write like one.

But one thing I can be sure is. I never regret of choosing this, and never will.

Maybe fairytales do exist in this world, but only those with bad ending

It came fast, but it goes away faster

This week I had been through a lot.

I dun even know what define me.

Life is a journey of learning, whether you succeed or not , you learnt anyhow.

Meanwhile, I am glad that it happen afterall.

The olympic has come to and end. Everything is back to normal here, like how my life is now.

Things stay the same.

And I am still the same.

=)

Sometimes when something comes, you just cant do anything to prevent it.
我不希望你会被伤害 ，平平凡凡就好。重点我的儿子快乐 ，不要被人耍

16 March 2010 01:02am
I cried.

Just wanted to say there are a lot of thing I felt like going back to the time and fix it.

Its not what dictionary classified as "regret". If you think I am, I am not. Sometime I am just thinking what I could have done to make the life now a total different episode. Some people come at the wrong time, and there are always some wrong people come in at the right time as well.

Thats just what life is, you can never get the best because this is the only way to keep you alive and chasing what you want.

But when you have got the best, you would dream of better.

Its just human, the reason why human were different from any other things.

At times, I would miss you, and I would miss those moment.

I know exactly where to reach you, but I just cant touch you anymore.

Instead of saying you are my best friend, I would say you belongs to the family. And you are one little thing that I am now not able to hold in life. When you choose to go, I expect the worst of you. I hope you are better in the other place now.

I really hope you do. I love you. You will be missed.

When the dawn is near, I know its the time to let you go.

Since I came here I always have a question to myself.

Why cant I score high grade in exam or even a small test?
At first I was blaming this to my poor english standard. But as the time goes and my english skill is building up, I dont see any improvement in my grade still.

I feel like its not something I can control within me anymore. No matter how hard I try to study for a subject I feel like its impossible to go beyond the gate that I had "technically set" for the first test result I had here. Thats just it.
Its like having something in your hand, but you can never have more because its too far away from you.

C'est la vie, n'est ce pas?

Being in Arts is funny, your professor will tell you that grammar isnt really the main subject in exam's essay, the most important is your idea. But the truth is grammar does a great shitload of things. Even if you doesnt know anything about the question, you can still squeeze something out and get some marks, or even full marks.

I am not the one who really care about the marks. But the point is I just want to find a reason why is that so. I study for the content rather than test. I study whenever I feel like it.

Currently learning how to solve rubik's cube faster and learning korean. Why? Because I feel like learning it.

:) cinquante-huit journee a maison