There is one thing that I love about running.

You dun stand in front of the mirror before you run and wonder what the road would think about you

You dun have to listen to a joke and pretend that it is funny.

You dun have to put that mask on and pretend everything is right when you are running.

The track wouldnt notice if you do ur hair or dressed up like a star

He doesnt care how valuable are you to him, how many you can offer, and how similar you are to him

The only thing track care about is that you pay visit him once in a while. And thats all that matter, he doesnt judge, he doesnt criticize.

I am all physic and force.

No longer do I understand the names around me, though all of them remains distantly crucial. Deep down something missed, and will never come back again.

Like how you ate one awesome heavenly food first time, then only come to realize its actually not that good the second time.

Those names cause me pain, of course that is okay. I want the pain - as much as possible. Maximum sensation, before none.

Then it comes to a point where I realized to leave is the best way to prevent further damage.

And so I did. I quit to save myself. I would never pursue the pieces that had been broken. The fragility and desperation is not something that I want.

This is why I value my headaches, despite of its destructiveness.

Because after the pressure explodes the walls of selfhood, nothing will ever be the same again.

When I heard those words coming out from people's mouth I feel funny. Who are you to talk about the things that you were never in anyway?

The sense of self is just something that men wouldnt give up.

Who are you to comment on others when you are the one who do exactly the same thing?

At that time,

There is only the cool night air caressing my face, the sound of the snowbreeze, the heavenly vault , and the weightlessness of having finally put down a heavy object.

for a few second - a few strange, lovely second - the sensation is not unpleasant. If there is anything in my mind now, it is the vague sense of relief.

and the sound of footsteps leaving, never returned.

Here is what sum up my 2010.

Its a new start of many things. Some lessons are best learned through pain. I lost some and of course gained some in return.

Some things started and ended as well in this year. There are some that I am glad I didnt start it at all. One thing to note that I realize there is so many side of me that no one really know about. Not even myself. When I am showing different emotion, it tends to be a different me. And so I come to conclude, maybe its best to go back to the one that know me the most. Let everything follow the flow.

I guess I had lost something that I hold most dear in my life. And of course gained something in return. Its not that I didnt try, but when something is gone, it is. But I guess things change, as how people do as well. I always come to think myself how can someone once so close and wave goodbye to you just like that. I was never the one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new.
But trust me, my memory still remain at where we used to share and laugh together.

Not surprisingly, I sleep through most of the days in 2010.

June, I had the best trip of my life so far. I must say I learn so much more about my family through this trip. What can I say? I am nothing without them. Its not until recent year I start to feel the bond with him. Albeit the distance and the latitude, just knowing that there is someone at the other side of the world sharing the same blood is enough. Recalling the time when I was driving from Sydney to Melbourne is nolstagic. Thats the time when I realized I am now at the age of taking care my family.

I am not a saint nor a superman, I am just one member of this family.

To quote what he said;

"The fundamental of our brotherhood was built on nothing but a corollary of the maternal parenthood. The brotherhood we had is not simply an adherence to biological connection, it is an outgrowth of fraternal covenant."

2010 is the year I started to set goals for my life. I had to do something in my life. And that something has to be recognizable.

Travelling around has been the thing that I keep on doing for summer. It doesnt really matter where you go, but who you go with.







I learned that every beautiful thing has thorns. It might be good to keep on doing one thing that benefit yourself, but eventually you will get caught and hurt yourself. To date, this is the biggest challenge that I face in my life.

Puntured a few times in the year, but saw and learned a lot of things in the process.

Vancouver 2010. Paralympic closing ceremony, it striked me hard that if they can do it, why not me? Where there is a will, there's a way

Set my foot in 7 countries and a few different continent. Ate quite some amount of food, got a know a few friends. Travelling is always a part of me, I always like to feel the scent of different culture and living style.

Haiti Earthquake 2010. A catastrophic 7.0M earthquake hit Haiti and approximately 3 millions people were affected. Those aid from all over the world is really heart warming. There is still hope and love in this planet. Our donation might be little but still, it helps.

Sushi. I believed I ate for more than 300 salmon sushi for the whole year.




Thailand trip 2010 is particularly interesting to me. The day before I was still lying on bed thinking where to go, the next, I am already in Thailand, it usually doesn't take long for me to do a decision. To say "see first" is not me, and I would rather do more things in life than to regret afterward.

Meet up with this guy after one year not seeing each other. He is still the same, and I think I am too. What surprise me the most is how much we growed in this one year. We shared a lot and I am really glad that I can still tell him everything.

2011, its time for me to strive for my future.

New year resolution? I have none I guess. Things change too fast that I didnt even know what will happen then next second. So this is all I did for 2010, what about yours?

I was always told that I need to be happy during New Year time, I think I am really happy this year.

deduct the dollarssss I lost this year. FML

:D

Thanks to winter olympic, I have two week holiday which fall exactly on Chinese New Year. For those who dunno, I am still having the two weeks holiday now. So whoever want to talks to me please do so cause I am super free now.

Olympic is good in a sense, it changes the whole Vancouver. But the bad thing is the congested public transport here, buses are always full. And you will see a lot of crazy people with their crazy country flag on them.

So its crazy people with crazy flag in a crazy town taking crazy bus.

Till then. Happy Chinese New Year everyone. Hope you all have a good one :)

At times I will fall into deep thoughts about life.

as in, my life

Right now right here, I am lost.

I start questioning myself did I do the right choice in my life. I feel like I had made a lot of mistakes in my life and I didnt work hard enough to squeeze into the most preferable path in my life. A big part of me is the thing that I love. Its in my blood.

Reality and Dreams are two different things.

You see things; and you say, "Why?"

But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?"

I have envisioned everything about it in my head, and I did rehearsed it over and over again everyday. But I know it will still be a dream if I never actually work on it.

Dun get me wrong, I don't have nothing to regret at all in the past.

But I know I need to do better in the future!

When I went back to something that I liked today after a long time, I suddenly feel the passion of it. I feel connected to it but I know somehow I cant just go for it because of my own limitation. I wish to be it but I know its not the time yet.

I doesnt have the strength and body shape and speed and everything to be it, but who cares?

I know I like it, and thats everything I need.

Yes I am being emo,

but no, I am ok.

I am just at another stage of life. I am glad that a short 1 hour training makes me grows.

Every man dies and not every man really lives. To lives, you must fill what's empty and empty what's full.

And thats what exactly I am gonna do now.

Life has been good to me recently,

I learnt a lot

I realized that self fullfilling prophecy really exist in this world. People will fill in the details they want thus perceiving this world as what they thought how it should be like.

Education cant provide us a line that distinguish what is correct and what is wrong for us. Everyone has their own ruler. There are too many jabronis in this world, they didnt walk their talk. They show off to people around them saying how good they are and how are they going to do something impressive. Instead of saving power to face their life, they are bragging how hard is it for others to be in their situation, but do they really know how others' situation is like?

In a way they are trying to impress everyone, but are they?

Its good to share your experience with others, but its not when you simply assume that you are working harder than others because you thought you were.

Being a narcissus might make them feel good, or even people around them will also feel good about them, but only naive people.

And in the end, they got nothing other than a big mouth.

The problem is, when you made the most "tabah" person in the group pissed off at you, you should know what mistakes you have done.

Love it or leave it, thats life.

I feel like I have this very "lungism" principle to live out my life. I do what I think is correct and let god to decide the rest for me. When I know someone is not good for my life, I will slowly move out from his/her circle because I know the longer I stay, the more danger I would be in.

My law of live is simple.

If you treat me good then I will treat you double good.

If you treat me bad I will definitely remember it.

People may say that I am being mean to those people, maybe they just did mistake.

But you can never guarantee there wouldnt be second times.

I see how people live through scornful remark flabbily, and I think its wrong. I think there is a need for me to correct those who made scornful remark instead of swallowing it silently. I believe in laissez-faire. I know everyone has their own freedom of how to live out their life, thus I wont say I am the one who live out the 100% life over others.

Of course I am not a perfect person, I do have my flaw as well.

*end of bragging

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Recently I found that I had a very good ability on recognizing faces, I can nearly recognize everyone from my class even though I had never talk to them before. Maybe a big chunk of my brain had been using up to recognize face, that why I cant do great in study :(

Some funny thing to share, someone say I look like this guy few days ago.

Michael Cera

acted in Superbad and Juno.

So I attach my own pic here for comparison.

They now call me Asian Michael Cera.

囧

I was terrified by the news of Haiti recently.
Until I saw them, I know there are still hopes and loves

Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Everytime we love, everytime we give, its the time the world at its best

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.

I believe that love cures people, both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it.

Good luck Haiti.

"房子裂了，塌了，我们还可以在修。
只要人活着，我们一定能够度过难关，战胜这场重大自然灾害"
这句话应证了两国的坚强，相信世界胁力同心，
天灾人祸，总是见证人类团结的时刻
当问题出现时，我们就能看到，原来人，团结起来有着这股那么强大冲劲。

生命的消逝，多少泪水都无法唤回;而拯救生命的行动决心，更是多少威胁都无法吓倒的！
对于这些本来应该享受快乐童年的儿童而言，“国家未来的主人翁”这个名词，显得一点分量都没有
他们现在手上的可能不是玩具，
而是找回家人的那分执著。


废墟中、书包、照片、床单、甚至尸体散布全地，就像已经支离破碎的家庭;延续的生命，需要背负更多的苦难。


家，从一个现在式变成过去式，人们需要花更多的努力，拼凑回家庭的原型;未来式，在远方等待
全球共有超过13万人参与这次的救灾行动，每一个生命都是希望，每分每秒亦是，在生死接缝的边缘，两边的斗士都没放弃…

我衷心的祈祷，
祈祷着那群孩子们能有个美好的将来
最重要的，是我们这些幸运的人们

要惜福

I must admit that the Melacca trip was really nice, the people are really nice there. They shop owner will actually comes to you and chat with you like a friend. A very big thanks to Kai Ling cause she willing to come out and become our tour guide. U are GREAT Kai Ling!!! We didnt follow the whole trip schedule but loitering around Jonker street. We visit none of the museum there actually. LOL. But i think all of us enjoy ourselves very much that day. I drank 2 1/2 cendol, two 500ml mineral waters, one tin of 100 PLUS and a lot of stuffs @@

The whole trip is about eat, eat, and eat. And i get to know my frens more and they are great as well. I think i will go pay another visit to Melacca soon ^_^

All the photo shot by my handphone, i am like a N80 photoshooter

On the way to Melacca, look through the map...
They are actually sponsored by DIGI, Sales Marketing I suppose
Quite Indian style decoration right?
Leong in rock hole!!!! HE rocks!! LOL
David: I thought we are coming here to eat???

Leong: The wall looks like my house back in JB
The must try Chicken rice ball in Melacca
Girls shopping are slow~~~~
Leong again =_=''
The paper art
Qing Yun shi (The temple of "Green Cloud")

The delicious Baba Chicken Mee
Jonker street, a lot of cheap stuffs here

Some artistic moment

Probably the best shoot of the day, the water lily

Due to some of my readers cannot read chinese, so this post i will post using English
(specially dedicated to Kirtti)
This few days is quite nice, nice environment, nice people around and nice friends
Feel like everything is getting smoothter
As the grauation day comes nearer, my heart become so excited
I wan to go to a trip!!!
A totally goes wild trip!
After one year of assignment, I feel like wan to take a walk to some places i wish to go before i get into this course
My IELTS is still in remarking process, for sure, i heard some good news aboout people who manage to raise their band from 5.5 to 7.0
I hope i can be like him also. But this time i didnt give so much hope for it, before i was really suffering from a terrible heart-ache that day when i receive my result. So, i dun really wish to get hurt again.

Just pass my Data test and King Lear last quiz, all end quite well.
I get the highest marks in KING LEAR test 48/50
happy~~~~
Feel ok about the data test as well.
Going to have moviesss this week i guess. Cause the last movie i watch was Vantage Point and its like yearssss ago. Pathetic huh? Anyway, i should be able to catchup two movie this week and i hope i really could.

Why feel so restrained by having all those assignment? Take a breath its all like a piece of cake for us. Plus, we have nothing to lost for those assignment but marksss to gain ^_^