Seriously I wish I never have to write this thing down.

This is to mark down what I feel and what I think for these three years in this circles.

Trust me, I had tried hard enough to get into the group that once I doesnt , and probably never will belong to.

Its funny how relationship will slowly deteriorate up to a point.

I witnessed how ignorant and arrogant can one be. I am not a perfectionist myself, so when I start to get annoyed by something, you can imagine how wrong the situation is like.

The point is, if you are keeping it to you and your so called "friend" I am totally ok with it. I know how variety this world is. I have been there. But if you crossed into my boundary, I wont be the one who just keeping quiet and aint doing a shit thing. I will rebel.

I will make sure you know the consequences if you offended me.

Saying others is inferior than you is wrong.

Waiting others to do something good to you is wrong.

Assuming you have the most hectic workloads in the world is wrong.

Acting as if everyone needs you is wrong.

Being sarcastic at the back and turn drastically to be the good man in front is wrong.

Commenting on others while you are just the same is wrong.

Being stubborn and never listen to anyone is wrong.

With so many wrong things happening in my life everyday, Sometimes I dun even know what is right anymore. I am how I think. What I do to you is exactly how I think about you.

I tried so hard to understand why would there be so much differences when we are all human. Bragging about how tough his/her life is and saying to the world that he is the best, acting as if the world owe him/her everything he deserved, taking advantage of other people for his/her own sake, never appreciate what others had done for him and etc.

So I come to a conclusion myself, to be this high, you need to be weird enough. There is only a few hundred in the country who make it to this point. To reach here, I know you have to have something.

Remember, the world or people around you doesnt owe you anything.

Thats how u should live your life. Its not a playground, in fact everyone can treat you like a dog on the street. We can donate our things to you, but you wont get anything anymore if you never bark or shake ur tail after we gave you the bone.

Upon writing this I was still thinking of saving some to maintain the relationship within the group. But now I know I dun anymore.

Well, I know writing this post will make many of you annoyed.
But I think I NEED to write it anyway

Waiting. A hard lesson learnt here
Seriously, I had never wait so much in my life before I came here
I heard numerous of :" Its ok to wait a while la, many people ma."

And yes I did.
Sometimes 10 minutes, 20 minutes and even one hour.
Note that 10minutes is the least time I had ever wait.

Not that I am on time everyday.
But I swear that I never will let someone wait me and ignore that that people had actually waited me

Is it so ok to be late sometimes?
The point I want to clarify here is, its not the current event that make me write this post. Ever boiling water in your time? I am at the limit of exploding off and people keep on heating on me.
Yes, I do have limit too


What's worse is,
Its not that I set the time for everything. Its not me.
So people who set the time should be on time. AM I BEING RIDICULOUS HERE?

And here come the story of my life,
When people ask for your help to bring them to buy things.
And I let them set the time.
Its not like I want to buy. But its out of the intention of helping them.
And I asked them to propose a time.

And yeah, time set
And then late again.

You are the one who want to go, you set the time, and you come late.
You play the whole game. Me being the fool.

Its so fucking not ok when you let someone waiting and you never feel guilty about it ok?
*I think its the first fuck ever in my blog, to show how serious I am in this case

After all, why should I devoted my precious time to wait people?