Thanks for people who were giving me support.

And for you-know-who-you-are
You are a nice friend, sister, confidant, and a great mentor for me !
now and always.
Since I start picking up running as sport till I am here now.
Really appreciate it.

I think I will start running again. =)
I felt better now

Thank you

I think I am still not ready

And the fact is, I had never been
I never take the four years as a serious one ever since the first day I saw the word
"Taniah"

If you said I had been given a good chance to be here and stand on this ground and I should appreciate what I have got.
I will tell you
"I already had enough of it, perhaps its actually more than you can think of"

What if I said I am out of here?
What if I said goodbye Vancouver?

Take me as a laughing stock, I dun care

Because what I want is my life back.

My pride, my glory, my legacy

I dunno why the blue feeling strike me so hard.

I feel like I am not me anymore.
The passion of life has gone.

far away

I am so dead and I can feel nothing right now.
The weather is cold and I already forget when was the last time I feel contented to myself.

Still, my nose will be painful when the weather gets too cold.
Still, I think here doesnt suit me well.
And still, I can't convince myself that I will stay here for four years.

This is the reason why I start to explore as many places as I can in Canada last term.
I scare I won't have the chance to do it afterward.

I miss the feeling of sweating under hot sun
I miss the feeling of getting home and having those warm well boiled soup on the dining table.

I am not sure since when I start to only look down on the road when I was walking.
I have a sense of insecure here which makes me feel like I am inferior among people here.

The used to be on top and happy go lucky me diminished in myself.

sorry if I did any you-might-feel-wrong-choice here.

I am just so not Canadian

I am down.

And I really am.

I can't believe that I actually spoke out this at last.

The fact is,

I am not enjoying for being able to come here to study.

It sucks.

Big time

When all my classes for the day has ended. I feel like not going home by walking because of the terrible weather in Vancouver

So I choose to take the shuttle bus to go back to my rez and save that slippery and dangerous 15 mins walk back home.

It is kinda new to me because I never take a shuttle bus to go back to my rez before.

So just when I was on the bus, an old lady approached me and asked me

"Whats your name, young man?"

"My name is Lung, Whats your?"
"Linda"

She is in her seventies, I was wondering what is she doing here in UBC, so I asked

"So what makes you here?"

"O, I was here to swim"

Yup, I was shocked at that moment like you did.

"Wow, thats great! When did u start swimming?"

"Actually I just start today"

"Why will u suddenly have the thought to learn swimming?"

"Well, life is short and sometimes we have got to do something we like before we couldn't. I doesnt have much time for myself when I was young, but now I had. So now I start to do things I like."

Her words stunned me. Feel like every bad things in my life is gone. I saw hope on her.

And most importantly, I saw a life on her.

Just when we were talking, a little boy approached to the bus and ask the bus driver

"Does this bus go to UBC?"

The bus driver replied

"Young boy, I think we are already there!"

The boy is so cute and I laughed from the bottom of my heart when I saw his cute yet chubby little face.

That makes my day. And all of that happened in the bus swept away all the bad memories of mine few months ago.

The world is still so big for us to discover and life is meant to be happy.

I was once told that if I could use my enthusiastic toward sport onto study, I sure will did well in my exam.

And here I am, ready for the new year and new term.

Life is simple, live it or quit it

And yeah, I am filled with passion right now.